Tuesday, August 5, 2025
100 Days
Wednesday, July 9, 2025
Lost Connections
Thursday, June 12, 2025
Updates
I've had my brother Gordon on my mind the past few days. This has been reinforced by the fact that my spotify playlist keeps playing songs Gordon played into the ground. I swear at one point in my life if I head Rascal Flats' "Life is a Highway" one more time I was gonn jump out of the moving car.
Father's Day is coming up, and that is just another reminder that Dad is no longer with us. Grief is wierd, you go months without thinking of someone you lost and then you hear a song or see something that makes you think of them and that scab is ripped right off the scar. I can't get over how the pain, when remembered, is as strong as the day it happened.
Connections. And this will be vague. Why do I find myself drawn to the unobtainable? Why is something I want 3,635 km away? Logistics are being worked on, so we will see how that comes out.
Friday, April 11, 2025
Out of reach
You ever meet someone who not only are they out of your league, but the physical distance feels insurmountable?
Yeah, that's where I'm at currently.
Saturday, February 15, 2025
One Year Later
Currently, my sleep is off again. I typically get 4-5 hours each day of sleep. My brain is foggy, my body feels worn. Right now I'm at work and all I want to do is make it through the next four and a half hours so I can go home and sleep.
It seems the only times I can sleep is when I take Zquil, but then I wake up feeling drunk, not hung over, but drunk. Even now I'm finding it hard to find the words to put here.
SO at any rate, that's where I am. Tommorrow is the one year anniversay of Gordon's death, so I'm feeling that too.
Thursday, January 9, 2025
Welcome to 2025
The President elect is talking about invading Greenland and Panama. He also wants to rename the Gulf of Mexico the Gulf of America.
There are fires in California.
There was a terrorist attack in New Orleans and L.A. by two men who were in the military, US Citizens, and were stationed at the same base over seas.
A plane crashed into a furniture store
And here it is only the 9th. Whiskey Tango Foxtrot
Tuesday, January 7, 2025
Well then
Met this woman, and we spoke for three week. The vibe felt right, we had a bunch of the same tastes and interests. And then, One morning it's good morning (replied), how did you sleep (replied) What should we discuss today (replied) Tell you what, ask me anything (and then she starts blocking me across all platforms.)
So again, to any woman who is reading this. If a guy has done something wrong could you at least TELL HIM WHAT IT IS?
Thanks